Grudges Inside

I smiled, I laughed, I tried so hard

I sang, I danced  to the music of life

I rejoiced every moment I had

Yet still hunted by my past

I shared, I loved, I gave all I could

I forgave yet never forgotten how I fall

I faced reality even in despair

I shouted, I sobbed, I fought, I lost

Living everyday and hoping for tomorrow

Escaping from yesterday, fooling myself once more

The light turned low, shadows hugged me

Slowly grudges killed me with no mercy

Keeping myself numb wasn’t enough

acting to be strong, made me coward

Burying all in my  heart, made me weak

Sobbing every night, dealt with thousand deaths

How to get over if I can’t stay away

Grudges of yesterday caged me forever

It grows everyday in me, I clenched

Please, help me get out of here