Day 14: Happiness

I

I could now laugh and smile,

Though each night I still cry.

I could now sing the songs I know,

But never the same melody that I belong.

II

I am happy to be loved by her

I am happy holding her hands so tight.

I am happy because I have her back,

Start a new good story with Kin, my love.

III

I am happy because I could now move on,

I am happy for him because he had move through.

I am happy, I keep on telling myself.

I should be happy that he is not with me.

IV

No more sadness and loneliness,

No more bad memories to think.

No more Mai, It’s all about Kin,

No more false happiness everything is real.

V

All this stuffs and pretending,

All these beautiful butterflies that are flying,

All the way I am happy, carrying this smile,

But those are just a façade, I fake those each time.

VI

False happiness, it’s what all these things bring,

This false happiness that seems so real,

I thought I found this right in a wrong time,

I thought I had it all, but it’s gone in a glance.

VII

Each day, I seek for my smiles,

My smiles that I soon to forget,

But I have to be fully recovered,

From all the pain that m pleasure gave.

*Each time I hide the truth, it brings more hatred. Each time I tried to smile, tried to forget, I can’t have the best. I have to forgive you, forgive myself before it all happen. I have to stay away from you until I am okay. Please stay away literally, because each time I see you, all I remember is lie. And when the time that I totally accept everything and I could continue to move on, until the time that there is no more hard feelings, no more bad memories to recall. If that time will come soon, I promise to be the same person that you know. I promise to bring back what we have lost, together with finding me to whom I belong, of what I should be part of. Time will heal me; it will surely care for me. I don’t want to waste all this good memories that we planted.